Isn't it funny how signs work? After Ashley died I had this horrible sense of loss... like someone came to me and ripped my heart out... I had already lost Cindy and now the one thing that we used to argue over, "who owned Ashley"...when in all actuality NO ONE owned her...she was her own little free spirit... she's gone. Something that I didn't write until now... but a few days after Ashley's passing, I was driving home from work and I was just feeling so empty and there it was... my sign from Cindy!
Next to me were two big trucks... the first one said EGL on the side (and for anyone that knew Cindy, she worked for that company for a very long time in NJ), the second in HUGE gold letters said ASHLEY furniture... I just laughed and said "ok i got the point Cin!!" ... thank you Cindy... you got the Ashley-kitty safe and sound. Take good care of her until I see both of you again...
And Cindy...give Bonnie a sign? I think she's needing them more then me right now. I wish I could be there for her but I can't... she doesn't allow it. I got caught in the crossfire of a problem between her and my mother and it left me in not only a horrible spot with both of them yelling at me at different intervals but I lost someone in the process. **Hey Bonnie... I saw you and jackie in Coscto a few months back... She got so big and she's gorgeous... and you looked good too.**
Have a good day all...
~Sherry
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Just Believe...
I come here often to visit and to believe and read and pray. I try to make sense of it all, but I can't. I won't and I never will. I am just as mad, hurt, angry, confused and lonely just as everyone else is the day you left us.(Down here that is) I know in my heart that you've just left here for another journey. Sherry, I'm sorry for your losses... I share the same-everday,every minute and every waking hour. I don't believe Cindy needs anyone more than anyone. It has been times of need that she comes here or there. I truly believe that. If there are no signs around...no news is good news and I take that as...she is busy and that she looks upon us and knows we are going on...going on lonely... but going on. I thank you for the compliment Sherry-I'm sure your beautiful Lil' Cidney girl is amazingly gorgeous and an Angel just like her mommy. I miss her more and more everyday. It hurts worse- not better as the time goes on so quickly. I had a strange phone call approx a month ago-right after my dream-the very next day my home phone rang with a Florida Area Code and a number. No-one answered me for I stayed on the line a few moments...I called it back for it was on my caller ID- a recording came on and said the number you are trying to reach cannot be reached please check the number and dial again...uhhhh some-one anyone?? Can you believe? Cindy comes to each of us in different ways and at different times. Just believe and dream and she will come. Until that sign-she is busy with her life in peace in a beautiful place with no hatred, no lies, no jealousy and most of all no sickness and no pain. Just believe Sherry, Just dream and she will come when she has time!!
Keep holding tight and be strong-she will come again.
Love,
Bonnie
SignsII
I went to another Physic on a boardwalk for the sake of it...and did not expect to be sitting in front of her in tears. Within 2 seconds of her speaking to me. She gave me the tissue and spoke on. A lot to say a lot to tell and a lot to ask. I got myself together for the best that I could to hear the rest. Then I get into the car and play the radio after this"Kathy" tells me she is so around here at home for many-dont you feel her? My Jamie boy said out of the clear blue ski...Mommy...Aunt Cindy was here wasn't she? I had to think on this one and asked my boy why do you say that? He said to me last night at bedtime when we spoke of Aunt Cindy and you were crying- I was going to cry too but I held it in and it burned my throat. He said mommy I felt her wind over my body- like a cool breeze. I said that was her way of looking over you to make sure you are tucked in tightly and gave you a kiss and her Angel wings are leaving you that wonderful breeze.I said Lil' man you can cry when we speak about her if you are sad that is okay and it is what you are feeling.And yes Jamie boy you will see her again in those puffy white clouds in that beautiful blue clear sky with lots of rainbows all around and you will play and sing silly songs and yes!! SHe will play video games with you and polish nails with Jackie and we will get bagels and Dunkin Donuts. Even where she is now Jamie and Jackie the have all that in a nice comfy place that will be all of ours to share again. I promise you my children we will all be together in one big happy, safe. comfortable place with lots to do. I put them to bed at ease.
Happy Birthday in Heaven my love...We wish you the most beautiful day that you can wish for yourself. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL,I MISS YOU MY ANGEL, AND WE WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ANGEL!! Not a day goes by without your name mentioned in my home. We all miss you very much...sending you lots of love my CIDNEY GIRL! I Pray everyday that you will always be with me...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART!
Love Bonnie,Jamie,Jackie and Jamie Boy!! Mom, Dad, Marc,Grace and Joey
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