For all of those...

For those of you who cannot make it to the cemetary... I put purple flowers and cleaned up Cindy's site as best as I could as well as a little holiday festiveness.  

I stayed a while, and updated her on everything going on.  I know she can hear me even when I am not there.  Its starting to get colder outside... and the holidays are approaching.  I hope everyone... while shopping for their family and friends, remembers to be thankful for what they have and what they have had in their lives.  Always remember to tell the people in your life that you love them.  Its a wonderful thing to be on the receiving end of that.

~me

November 13, 2008

Can you believe that November 13th, 2008 is four years that Cindy is gone. Please take a moment to light a candle and have a moment of silence for her on this day. Remember her smile and her laugh... her wit and her honesty. This time is different for me, I am now the age Cindy was when she passed away... 36. So tomorrow will be the last day she was alive at this age... and I will surpass her after 2:30am tonight.

Please let everyone remember that she would want us to smile and remember her in good times. Please feel free to comment if you read this... I dont get much feedback anymore and I'd love to know that someone is reading this aside from just me.

As someone said to me recently... "smile, there is always someone out there that thinks of you"

She is missed today as much as she was missed the day she left. I hope that Ashley is keeping her company and I hope that she is getting all the kisses and snuggles I desperately miss. Also Thanks to my mom to find cindy's bathrobe, unwashed... on my birthday I got to breathe my Cindy in for a moment and cry... I so missed that.

Bless all that read this... and thank you for your moment of silence tomorrow.

always,
Sherry

Happy Birthday Cin...

Can you believe today you would have been 40 years old? I wish you were here, I think we would have thrown you a surprise party today... it would have been a perfect day for it too. Melissa is nearly 6 years old, she's so smart. I am sure you are so proud of her... if she ever asks me what your greatest accomplishment is, I am going to tell her that it is her. Happy birthday Sis... I love you.

~Sherry

...and time will keep ticking....

I dont know how many people still read this but I still write... *wave* to all that do still read it and I'd love it if comments were left if your still out there?

My grandmother is actually doing a little better. I saw her yesterday and she knew who I was, what was going on around her and she was happy to see me. Other then that... not a whole lot going on.

I am right now the age Cindy was when she was sick, from July - October she was 35 which I am now and then November she was 36 which I will be. She would be 40 this year... There isn't a day that passes that I dont miss her as much as the day she left. I can still see her face smiling at me when I would sit in front of her and rub out her legs from the pain. I just kept reading her eyes... we were never very good at opening up to each other, once in a rare while we did.

But we both knew we loved each other, and that was solid. No matter what.

Hey... remember this, and only this...

"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain"