Here comes August!

Well August has finally started and its a rainy day and all is somewhat quiet. I got to sleep in a little this morning and I spent last night watching Shrek with my sister. We both fell asleep. I woke up around 2am and shuffled myself upstairs at her request to not have anyone sleep downstairs with her. So I left my phone with her as a security blanket on MY end and left. I thought just in case of a problem she can dial my mother's line upstairs. She's been having trouble breathing and the machine they gave her isn't working right, seems to be missing one of the drugs it needs to work the way it should for her. I felt so frustrated like I wanted to literally just give her one of my lungs so she could get a good deep breath. I still dont quite understand why this is all happening but at the same time I'm doing my best to be a good sister and friend to Cindy. Yesterday she and Chris had fun picking on me during dinner and I just let them pick away. I thought that honestly I would rather hear her laughing then not feeling well. She was a bit nausious this morning but I'm hoping that will pass quickly for her. She's still swollen inside from the biopsy surgery and its causing her aweful heartburn as well as nausia. I hope that heals up quickly too.

We got Chinese food last night which put Cindy in food heaven... it's her favorite especially from where we got it from. My mother and sister were attacking me with money and who was going to pay for it. In the end I took Cindy's money, I think she needs to feel like she contributes back and she should if she wants to. My mother can't always do everything.

I went to where I used to work and left about a year ago yesterday. It felt funny just walking through the front door. I didnt leave on horrible terms but I felt very uncomfortable until the greeting I got from my exboss. She had heard about Cindy through one of the girls working there that I did stay friends with. She was then asking how she was and what happened. I had told her I was sorry but I needed to ask her for a favor. With my basement pretty much destroyed, I had nowhere to bathe my cat. The dog isn't really a problem since she doesnt shed and if I blow dry her out nothing flies out of her. My cat on the other hand, the hair goes all over, which is why I bathe her in the slop sink, located in the basement. Now I cant. So I made arrangements with my exboss (Diane) that every three weeks I can bring Ashley (cat) into her place and give her a bath. She's not charging me since I'm doing it on my own and not using any of her stuff. I thought it was nice of her. I was pretty thankful for it.

Well I have some family coming over today, my cousins Cynthia and Tom and MAYBE my sister's friend Bonnie and her husband Jamie. Also one of my brother in law's relatives, completely forgot who he was, but a nice guy. Things here have been quiet, but after this coming Tuesday when Cindy goes to Sloan Kettering Hospital, the road just begins.

She had a very tiring day. A lot of company and awake all day. I would think by now shes passed out cold sleeping and I'm hoping sleeping very soundly. She deserved it and needed it tonight.

Have a good Sunday everyone.