Songs

It's amazing how one song can make you stop the car, pull over and burst into tears... its been three months... actually 12 weeks and three days and I still feel it was yesterday that I kissed Cindy's cheek as she slept and told her that I loved her dearly. I whispered in her ear that it was her "purple world" and that she would forever be in it. Avril Lavigne came out with a song called "Slipped Away" which seems to really hit home and even though its hard for me to listen to, I can never just turn it off. Even when I want to, I wind up just listening anyway.

For now all I can do is give you the lyrics, but I hope that all of you reading this will take a moment to locate this song and maybe listen to it. It may not be Sarah McLachlan and her sorrow style, but the lyrics really do fit.

I dont know how anyone else is doing, but I still feel like I am drowning over here. All the therapy and meds to keep me calm in the world aren't going to help me. They aren't going to bring back what I lost and I will never again have peace the way I did or balance.


"Slipped Away"
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.

[Chorus]
The day you slipped away.....
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh

Na na 
Na na na na na 

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

[Chorus]
The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh


I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone 
Now you're gone
There you go 
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go 
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

[Chorus]X2

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you.

Friends...

You never realize how much friends can mean to you until you get really close to them. I thank God for a loving family that pulled together through a very rough time and still pulls together whenever needed. But I also am thankful for good friends. Friends that are there through the tears... smiles, and even the occasional quiet movie where neither of you feel like talking.

Chris... you have been a solid rock for me for years... and there are times that I know I've been your leaning post back. We have a gentle understanding, and we can read each other very well. It's a purple world Chris... and it should belong to you.

Meredith... You've become my surrogate sister...through all that happened with Cindy, I will never be able to repay your kindness, and all you have done for me. I believe and hope that things for you turn around soon. And when they do, I'll be there, to smile with you. Right now bad times are on both of us, and we still manage to crack a smile to each other... and tell each other "I love you". And I do... love you.

Erik... we've had our good and bad times just like everyone else.. but you have proved to me that you can be there for me when I need you most. I don't always understand our friendship and I dont think I was meant to. But I'm glad we have it. Your friendship has taught me a lot and shown me that even the toughest of people... can have a soft spot for a white cat.

Ernesto... Thank you for all the laughs, silly stuff and the stuff I am sure you will still introduce to me as our friendship continues. You've always been my comic relief and sometimes that's all I need... and you always do that. Thanks. :)

Lori... New to my life as a friend but old to my heart. I feel like I know you forever and I love the fact that I have a new friend in my life thats a girl, who I can talk to. You always seem to be on my level. I feel like we should have been friends from when we were little and I have a lot of catching up to do. I know we dont live close to each other... but even the closest of friends use just words most of the time... and we have plenty of that.

Craig... Forever a friend. What can I say about someone that I have such a long history with. All I can say is this... we may have our differences, and we may not always see eye to eye... but we will always have the same common goal, friendship.

There are a lot of other people out there that I consider friends and maybe eventually I'll get to all of them. For now... I hope everyone reading this cherishes the friends they have... and always makes sure to spend lots of time with them.

~Sherry