There are things in a person's life that you never forget. You never forget that first toy that you fell in love with as a kid... when it was placed in your fingers and you hugged it for the first time. That feeling you got...
You never forget that first time you fell in love. You see the other person's eyes and think to yourself how you would just do anything for that person, for the rest of your life. Even though somewhere down the line the teenage puppy love ends, you still never forget that person and how they made you feel.
You never forget the first time you appreciate anything in your life. The first time you look at your siblings and realize your appreciation for them. For me, I was 11 years old. Sitting on the floor outside my sister's bedroom watching her put make up on slowly. She was humming a song that was playing on the radio... and I sat there and just loved to watch her.
I will never forget the first time I drove... the adrenalin that you get from being nervous and happy all at once. The first time I flew a plane, having the power in my fingers to turn a plane and fly... looking out onto the horizon and seeing beautiful trees.
When someone leaves you... whether its just someone walking away from your life or passing into the next life, you tend to forget little things... like how they smell, or how they feel when they hug you. How soft their hair was... the sound of their laugh. You desperately try to remember all of that, and hold onto it as long as you can. Your never the same... as people walk in and out of your life, your just never the same.
I will never quite understand how this process works... but like the day you got your first toy that you loved more then anything in the world as a kid, you hold onto that memory, and thats what keeps those people around forever. Sometimes you dont have a choice but to let someone go... but they will always live in your heart and your soul. On days where you find a little patch of quiet... the days where the sun is out, and its a nice day that your appreciating, you remember those people and they come alive in the warmth once again.
Always remember that somewhere I am out there... and I will always remember and keep everyone alive.
~Sherry
