Four and Counting...

Today is Melissa's fourth birthday. I know Cindy is watching her from heaven and smiling upon her as always. I hope Melissa had a very happy birthday and I hope that she gets every wish she asks for.

I love you Melissa Lynn.

~Aunt Sherry

And another year quietly passes by...

This should have been posted on November 13, 2006 but the site was having trouble so I couldn't get it to post. But here it is.. for what its worth....

I feel like I blinked through this year. It's November 13th, 2006. Two years ago today I had my heart ripped into a thousand pieces as my sister was taken from me. I wish I had some amazing words of wisdom... but I don't. I watched "Walk the Line" yesterday. Thats the movie about Johnny Cash. I didn't know that his brother Jack died when Johnny was 12 years old. Through the entire movie its something that was emphasized that he never got over it and it was always just sitting in his mind. I wonder if any siblings out there really do get over it... or are able to not have it dance around the front of their mind as it does to mine. In the movie, Johnny Cash said that people got tired of hearing about it, so he just stopped talking about it. But it never leaves him. I guess the bond between siblings is something greater then any sibling gives it credit for.

Someone said to me once "I'd rather die on my feet then live on my knees." That statement is just so true. Cindy would have felt the same way. I know she is somewhere beautiful, where there is no rain, unless you want to hear it, there is no darkness unless you close your eyes, there is no cold unless you wish to see snow, and there is an abundance of love.

I'll see you again someday Cindy... for now know that the hurt I have... I can't help that. I know you do not wish for me to be upset, but instead to smile upon your memory and know that your always right beside me. Well know this; there are some things that get embedded into a person's emotional state. The love of a sibling is one of them. The love of a parent is another..

I guess Johnny Cash is right, you just dont get passed it. You learn your best to live with it. As I try to do every day.

~Sherry

Happy Birthday Angel

Aah Cin... god I miss you. Today you are 38 years old in heaven but knowing you, you asked to stay looking 30! I miss you something horrible, Melissa is such a pleasure and shes just soooo mushy!!

Andrew is doing great with her... I'm sure you keep an eye... hehe

I lit a candle for you, for your day.... and I hope you liked the purple flowers and pumpkins I put by you at the cemetary... I love you and you are as always, never forgotten...you are forever immortal....

She just is getting so big and shes so smart! I honestly have to say that there isn't a day that goes by that I dont see more and more of Cindy in this little girl. But I am so thankful to have her.  

Funny how...

Some things never change. Two years ago today, July 19th, 2004 I was told that Cindy had cancer. I just can't believe that when my eyes opened this morning it was the first thing to come into my mind. I don't think I will ever get over that horrible sinking feeling, like all the air sucked right out of the room.

I am so thankful for family and friends that have and continue to help me through this... and I'm sorry to everyone who also shares pain with me on Cindy's loss. I guess we all share it but in a different way. For me, its my lifelong sister... from the moment I was born I never knew a time without Cindy, even when I didn't want her around! Now its still not normal. Every person who talks to me about their sister, brother... just makes me jealous.

I can only offer this.... cherish your time on earth... and those around you that you love. Dont ever take them for granted, you just never know when they will be taken from you.

I love you "Cidney"... and I miss you terribly...

~Sherry

Times keep changin'...

Well another month has passed, and things are quiet. I bought myself a used SUV, I know gas prices are crap but I'm tired of my back and neck bothering me so... truck! Its a 2000 Chevrolet Blazer, its white, two door, 4x4. I love it. I've got it since April 21st and I couldn't be happier with it.

On another note, Dave (my english friend) was in and we had a great time. I'm thankful for his friendship and I hope it continues for years to come. He's been looking to move here so I'm trying to help him find a job and get things going...

Mom's corrective surgery went GREAT and she didn't even have to go to that awful rehab! She came home and she's been a real trooper doing her exercises and keeping off that leg as doctor's orders! Dad's got a touch of bronchitis but it's clearing up. Little antibiotics and he's doing fine. They were in the backyard yesterday enjoying the sun which I was happy about.

I'm sorry there isn't much to tell, just been rather quiet on this end... I guess thats a good thing??

Hope May is just as quiet!!! I'm going to see Melissa and Andrew on the 13th just for an overnight but it should be great. :)

Take care all!!
~Sherry

Ashley update...

Sorry I haven't updated this in a bit, it's been a little busy for me but things are going pretty good! Ashley's tests came back negative, so she's living her 50th life I think?? And as a matter of fact today is Ashley's birthday!!! She's 18 years of age today! Should I get her a voter registration card?? (Thanks for the joke Lori!!)

I actually sang happy birthday to her this morning. I figured that she's 18 years old and she deserves at least that much and I have two new toys for her later tonight.

Mom's knee surgery didn't go as great as the doctor would have liked. Seems theres scar tissue around her knee joint and its making it hard for her to move it properly. So she is going to have to go back and have that "cleaned out" so she can get on with it a little better.

On a sad note, and I wish I had posted this sooner but time hasn't been on my side... my cousin Cynthia's dog Noodles passed away. I know it was very hard on her and her family but hard for me as well. So I hope that little Noodles is resting in peace, playing with Charlotte and I hope that my sister is taking care of him as well. I know someday I'll be handing her Ashley too, just not quite yet!

Glasses!

I got glasses! It's nice to SEE what I am doing at work and when I watch TV. Things here are going ok, I can't really complain all too much. Ashley (my cat) has been sick and the vet took samples of a lump she has to test for cancer. I really hope its not cancer. I truly hate that word. She's 18 years old, and I know that she's had a really long life, but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to let her go. Sorry for the bad quality picture, it came off a cell phone from last weekend. Take care all, and say a prayer for Ashley!